Tuesday, September 02, 2003

 
I feel like such a wuss...sometimes I wonder what i'm complaining about...and then I think that I'm a loser who hasn't done anyting creative for over a year...and then I remember how demoitvating it was in the place where I used to work..how did I ever think that was motivating?....And I'm still struggling with the 'what I want to be when I grow up'...i'm finding that since I became 'addicted' to exercise, if I don't have any, my brain is mush...not sure if that's a good thing..I suppose in the long run...but it's going to start getting cold..how will I keep running outside?...i'll have to fork out $$$£££ for an expensive gym membership...but I need to get a job...well,I have one but one that's challenging...am I being too picky?...do I have too many options?...maybe that's the problem...I'm not desperate enough and I could do other things...so I let my creative writing slip...just because it is harder work than anything else I can do...except I really love it when i'm doing it...do something you love, they always say, and you will succeed...they seem to forget the part that usually following your dreams and doing something you love is not easy...and it's so easy to be lazy...i just hope in 40 years time, i'm not dissappointed with me...guess I'll have only one person to blame won't i?
posted at 7:56 AM.