Monday, October 13, 2003

 
i wish a had my own home office, with my own home computer...and a filing cabinet..full of contacts...and story ideas...and research alphabetized..I wish I had character interviews set up....so I could say I was 'researching for my book'....i wish i had publishing contacts....I wish I had the confidence of a 16 year old...or maybe a 20 year old...that I have forever and I can do anything......I wish I could just get my creative writing juices back...i wish i could stop my brain from coming up with great ideas that I can't do quite yet...because I don't have a house...and i definitely have no money....i wish I could win the lottery...i wish D would figure out what he wants to do.....then I could stop worrying about him although he's never asked me to and that's really just my own fault...i wish i didn't feel so behind everyone else...i wish i could afford manicures....i wish...i wish...

i wish i'd stop wishing my life away....
posted at 11:03 AM.